2020 has been one hell of a year, not only for my family but for the world. It’s been a rough one dealing with my oldest mental health issues and finally taking a real good look in the mirror and dealing with mine. We are both on the mend and even though medication helps there are always dark days for both of us. Though the good days out shine them.
I used to write all the time in the sims and started many stories. I switched to streaming and making YouTube videos. Though as much fun as it was to make videos it wasn’t really a passion of mine. I love to stream still it gives me a chance to catch up with my friends online. Though I haven’t been really doing that either.
I started retreating away from the things I love and enjoy the most due to my anxiety and depression. I poured my soul in to my work and neglected the people I love and the things around me that I enjoy. Work has always been my safe haven when things get rough. I know sounds crazy right but when I was growing up and got my first job. It meant I didn’t have to be home. I didn’t have to be in the place or around the people who destroyed my self esteem and made me feel worthless. I learning now that it is not a good coping skill. That avoiding my problems won’t make them go away.
I started reading blogs again and came across CathyTea’s Simlit again. I always enjoyed her stories and her Goofy legacy was one of my favorites. I started reading her new legacy and I am in love with it. Also the fact that it has inspired so many more people to join in and start a legacy challenge again. It has inspired me. I used to love to write, I was on the forums constantly and then slowly started drifting away from it. From something I enjoyed doing.
One of my goals for my mental health is to take time for things I enjoy doing. Which is why I am going to start the legacy challenge over again. I don’t know what world we will end up in but I do know I am using my first sim that I started my old legacy challenge with. Her name is Pearl Hamilton. She has had a bit of a makeover but I still love her dearly. She was one of the first sims I created. It will be a little bit of story telling, and sharing my own thoughts and feelings. Mentally I think it will be helpful to express myself and work though what I am currently going through. I don’t know if Cathy still checks out my stories from time to time but I want to say thank you for inspiring me.